Sometimes you just need to give yourself a break.

What has been up with me you ask? The whole eating clean thing has been hard, and not because I don’t want to do it  - because I seriously have become that person that loves eating clean and when I see food on my plate I can see how it is going to improve my mood, and get me closer to my goals. I am struggling because in one month alone I have had, 2 weddings, 2 wedding showers, 1 bachelorette and a whole lot of post wedding brunches. The list goes on with a sinus infection, laryngitis AND the stomach flu. I kept thinking…seriously? Is this happening right now. So for a large portion of the time I was not working out and then… Can I say buffets? Late night stations? Every single food possible? Let me tell you something about myself which I might not have told you before…I LOVE FOOD. LOVE FOOD. My friends always say the best way to cheer me up is by making me food. I am an emotional eater to the extreme, an “im tired” eater, “let’s celebrate” eater. Every eater in between, that is me. So when someone shows me a buffer with all of my favourites, I go crazy. I have learned this month that I must teach myself portion control.
This month has been FUN. I love my friends, I love my family but I sort of want to be selfish and say…WOAH now this is about me. I want to be that girl with a motivational story. The girl with the before and after pics. I took some pics from the beginning of February and compared to the beginning of March and I myself saw some minimal change, but nothing that made me pat myself on the back. I have to remember it takes time, dedication and process - it also means not beating myself up for it. I have 51 more sleeps until my trip to the Dominican and I am going to do my very best, very very best to stay dedicated to the program. I am doing Cassey Ho’s #newbodymakeover and am on week 5, I am going to stay dedicated to her workouts, but if something comes up, something comes up. I find when I start a new fitness routine I can become isolated because I am so focused on always eating right and always working out that I tend to lose my nights out with the girls. I need to learn how to balance. This is life and I want to live it, in every possible way.  I have much more to say, but I think this is enough for now. Remember you can change your story, write it however you want to see it unfold. One day at a time, and do it for those little comments like I got this morning from my mother half asleep..you look slimmer, not so much of a tummy